Saturday afternoon

I sent Murph home to take a break, so Lincoln and I have been hanging out with a new nurse today (who I have won over and she agrees Lincoln likes his momma close by).  This morning was rough. Still waiting to see if all of the fluctuation in levels were just a fluke or are something more serious. More waiting -something I am NOT good at. They will test again tomorrow and do more x-rays to see how he is doing. This whole experience keeps teaching me to stay in the moment because when I plan ahead or think what ifs, things change in the meantime and it was a waste of my much-needed energy. He has been off of his Fentanyl today and doing pretty well without it (hoping to keep him off of it-it is stronger than morphine!). His stomach was really upset and gassy, but after a suppository, he has been doing much better. His breathing is labored, but the doctor thinks the air pocket by his lung should heal itself. He took four one-ounce bottles of pedialite and has been more alert today than all week. His co-ag levels are in the therapeutic range, which is really good for his valve and heart. He is finally liking his pacifier again, which is really helpful to soothe him since we can't pick him up. His cough looks excruciating when he has to cough because of his chest. I guess it is normal and needed, but I feel for the little man every time. We are trying to keep our spirits up, especially for him.  Lincoln needs us to be strong to help him fight through this and start recovering. And Murph and I will need support from people who truly care about us and Lincoln's well-being. So many of you have just been amazing -we truly appreciate it. Xoxo